I hope that you are familiar with the spoon theory, but if you are not here is a quick summary of the theory. Each day we have X number of spoons these spoons represent energy. The healthy individual has an almost unlimited number of spoons and they also have a reserve number of spoons that they can call upon. The idea is that the healthy person almost never becomes exhausted.

Then there are those of us who have a limited number of spoons. Those of us with COPD fall into this category. I have another disease called Grave’s Disease which limits the number of spoons that I have. Yesterday I ran out of spoons so that even my reserve number of spoons were used up. When that happens, it does not matter how hard that I try I cannot force myself to complete the items on my list and my only alternative is to sleep.

Yesterday according to my Fitbit I slept 18 of a possible 24 hours. I missed a meeting that I was looking forward to attending and did not care if the phone was ringing, the dog was barking, or the cat was trying to get me awake. I just wanted to sleep. I am hoping that I find this posting cathartic because the fatigue issue is one that I have not been able to totally come to grips with. I also hope that the post gives some comfort to others who find themselves in this same predicament.

My friend Jimmy Slover speaks about pacing ourselves. I wish that I had Jimmy sitting on my shoulder directing me how to pace myself because I have not learned how.